WHERE THE LIGHT SHINES THROUGH

While editing chapter 16, I started to tear up because although Jacob is fictional and completely made up I think I created him, even WITH his alcoholic demons, as some sort of homage to my own father (or at least the change I WISH he would make) and I realize that no matter how much I want it it HE has to want it first. I've grown up my whole life hating, loving or resenting him because of the choices he made that never included me. I've blamed myself and I'm not even sure why because I know it isn't my fault. More than anything I just want his love and I've never really had it. Jacob, on the other hand, gets to a point where he realizes that his family is all he has and that's what led him down the road he ends up on by the end. (Did you REALLY think I was going to give the ending away? :p)

My point is this: the wound is where the light shines through so maybe I have him to thank for a small start in my writing career. If nothing else, its been one cathartic hell of a ride!